Seeing through the human conduct 1: You're actually obsessed with what you criticize

[man... text in the last post fully stuffe up =S... and LUNATIC, STOP TYPIN RANDOM STUFF ON MY TAG BOARD AS ME! gawd... it's so annoyiN! nehooz... erm... andu... wat i typed in the perfect bf section, it kinda can fit a lot of people? =P... juz to let u noe XD hui hui]

Decided to write about a few human behaviours that are not what they seem to be on the surface, this is the first one.

Making it transparent: whatever one criticizes the most, it is what one is totally obsessed with.

I suppose you may deny this without a second thought, but let's take a look at a few examples.

1 My own experiences
I tend to drift conversation towards people's height- that's because I like talking about it, that I like being crowned a midget, that I like my height in attention, that being a midget can unravel very interesting stories.
I also bring about conversation onto people's body type, especially skinny people- that's because I like that type of body on myself (even though it's not appealing on others) because it's something I don't have, and it's human nature to want things you don't already have.
I pick out the tiniest imperfection on what men would describe as "hot" women- that's because I'm jealous (as part of human nature once again) and I'm sure all women feel the same way, unless they too think that that particular woman is hot.

2 Andu's projection of "the god of love hates me"- is it true that being single is great?
In our conversation, it must touch the subject of love at least once.
He has had a few very recent blogs about it, even wrote a peom about it.
Keeps wanting to find Lucy, but recently piped down about it.
Fills out tags or other chain mails about the subject of getting a girlfriend.
Wants me tell him about it ASAP, when I get a boyfriend.

3 Anyone's experiences
Remember the time when you criticized something because you simply could not get your hands on it?
Remember when you hated something/someone out of jealousy and nothing else?
Remember when you could not get yourself to pay compliments because you don't want to admit that that thing/person is really too good to be true?

Just a few thoughts and comments. Think about it, you'd probably agree.

Hui Hui ^^b

Perfect Boyfriend?

[awwww... thanks guys for the comments and tag! ^^... feel so loved! Hehe... thanks for the support guys! I'll still b wif u guys at Chinese skool nehooz... so it's all gud yeh? ^^... ehehe... today... it's a tag thingo that I found on Du's blog... might as well do it? ahaha... don take it for real though, it's not set at all, it changes from case to case =P... hui hui XD]

THE PERFECT GUY-
1. Hair color: The person's natural hair colour would be sexy, but dyed is all good too... as long as it suits da guy =)
2. Eye color: The natural colour? =S... or coloured contacts that suit i guess... XD
3. Height: Preferably about 180cm+... but not overly tall to like 2m!
4. Six pack: Yeah, would b good, shows fitness... and hotness... =P
5. Long or short hair: anything that suits da guy XD
6. Glasses: Preferably not, but yeh, don relly mind in the end =)
7. Peircings: Anything, whatever they're comfy with ^^
8. Scars: You kinda can't help this right?... guess it doesnt matter!
9. Eyebrows: Normal? ahaha... just natural and suitable is good!
10. Big butt or little: again, plz juz be urself?
11. Chest hair: AHHAHAHAHAAH... wat kinda question is this? erm... i dono???
12. Buff or Skinny: i'd probs like buff more... or just fit, not too skinny =). all in all though, don relli mind XD
13. Straight teeth, Gap or Braces: don relli mind again, as long as ur smile is expressive =)
14. Funny or Serious: Funny with a serious side!  
15. Party or Stay home: PARTY! ehehe... but also stay @ home sometimes, chillin out is awesome too XD
16. Should he cook or bake something: yeh.. guys who can cook impress me, coz da guys i live with cannot do any of that =S
17. Should he have a best friend: hehe... it's his life and choice there, up to him!
18. Should he have a lot of girlfriends: erm... like b4 we get together? guess it doesnt matter... everyone has a past =)
19. Outgoing or Shy: Outgoing once you kno him, but shy at first... dat's cute =)
20. Sarcastic or Sincere: both! @ diff times, diff ways to handle things is a skill! XD
21. Should he love his mother: yesh.. even if he doesnt admit it =)
22. Watch chick flicks wit you: yep... dats kinda unavoidable if u're with me =P
23. Would he be a smoker: NO, too stupid if he does =S
24. Would he drink: Occassional party stuff yeh, but not like alcoholic, binge drinker =S
25. Would he swear: Yeh, ahaha... when the situation calls for it =P
26. Would he play with your hair: dat'll b awesome =)
27. One or more girls at a time: if it aint serious, den i don mind, but.. def not if it's supposed to b serious =S
28. Would he pay for the dates: right now? probs not, we'll split =).  if he works like properly, den yeh... might as well? =P
29. Does he kiss you on the 1st date: depends on how the date was, i wouldn't mind!
30. Where would you go to dinner: erm.. somewhere with nice atmosphere dats comfortable, where we can juz enjoy ourselves =) 
31. Would he bring you flowers: ahaha... dat'll b cliched but awesome, i'd like dat =)
32. Would he lay under the stars with you: YES! awww.. how sweet iz dat!!! XD
33. Would he write poetry about you: ahahha... dat's kinda freaky, but if it tickles his fancy, sure! =P
34. Would he call you hunny, sweetie or baby: yeah, i love pet names ^^
35. Would he hang out with you and your friends: yep, we should noe the people in each other's lives right? =)
36. Would you hang with him and his friends: Yep, i'd love to =)
37. Will he walk you to the door: awww.. sweet as!  Yeh... love dat!
38. Holding hands: YEP! ^^
39. Soccer: Yeah, kool with ne sport =)
40. Baseball: Yeaaap
41. Basketball: Sure
42. Football: i cant play this for nuts, but... sure can! =D
43. Water polo: Yes!
44. Surf: YEEhaw... sure! XD
45. Skateboard: yep, looks hard though =S
46. Snowboard: yep! ^^
47. Sing: i find dis relli hot with guys.. ehe.. it'll b awesome if he can sing! =)
48. Plays guitar: yep, instrument's good, juz knowing music's good! ^^
49. Piano: kewl!
5o. Play drum's: sure!
51. Clean his room: ahaha.. dis would b rare.. but doesnt matter if he does or not =)
52. Paint/Draw/Sculpt: arty hey? ehhee.. sure, it'll b awesome =)
53. Writes his own music: whoa... dis would b HOT as... eehhe.. love it! XD
54. Uses the word dude: ahaha.. does this even matter?
55. Uses the word tight: yeh.. watever u like! =)
56. Would he watch the sunrise with you: YES.. aww.. another sweet thing =)
57. What kind of car does he drive: don mind, all gud XD
58. How old is he: nmn.. guess don relli mind, juz not too far up or down my age =)
59. What would his name be: whoa... dis is goin way too far.. guess dis one's up to fate =)


Hope this entry has been intriguing.  Does this provide any sort of insight at all?  Doesn't matter really, it's all just for fun!

Hui Hui ^^b

Nostalgia... last day of high schooling

[whoa... havent posted for so long... =|... soz peeps ><... and... today... last day of high school ever in my life... i just need to talk about the feeling today. =P... luv, hui]

Thoughts
1 OMG WTF BBQ
2 The way 5 years of high school just flew past, all the laughter, tears, dramas... all so blurred and fast forwarded.
3 The fact that I've finally lived in one place for more than 4 years without moving. Sweet stuff...
4 Everyone looks so different compared to at the start of high school.
5 Awesome to have had such great friends, teachers and school for the past few years. Will we be able to keep in touch?

Feelings
1 Sad
2 Excited
3 Nervous
4 Nostalgic
5 Hopeful

With this very mixed up mind and feeling, I went to school for the last time. Forever and ever, I will never ever be able to experience moving to the next class on the siren, gathering at designated lawns for recess and lunch, seeing everyone in uniform, walk in corridors nodding at people I know. It's all so sad... yet, at the thought of finishing high school and opening a new chapter in my life, it's something that I should celebrate; and I am looking forward to it a lot. However, with the never ending photo shoots, the touching speeches made by teachers, the book signing... it all marks an end and beginning- how can I face this without being confused? I'm sad, nervous, excited... all combined... with not one overpowering any other.

Tomorrow, the final high school assembly shall take place; after that, there's the final valedictory assembly, but it's not in the school gym. Would it be the last time that I sat in that gym for any kinda of purpose? Would it be near the last time that I will ever see some of my classmates? Man... I really don't know how to face it.

Today, as I gave presents to each of my teachers, they all courteously returned the favour, and I was glad that they all seemed to liked my token of appreciation. Mr. Whyte's speech was the one that touched me the most (Mr. Grasl's was quite good too... but Mr. Whyte's my form teacher... so... I guess there's a stronger connection there) and he was seriously one of the best teachers that I have ever had. Loved my form class too, what a close knitted class we were.

New chapter, new beginning. It's just the fact that, when there's a dramatic new beginning, it seems conditional that something in the past must end, that I can't really accept right now. Time flies and heals all, right? ... I'll be OK soon.

Hui Hui ^^b

Nightmares

[havent had much to share lately... been busy with holidays, but blogging about everyday things arent dat great... so yeh... nowadays been gettin real bad nightmares... weird ones =P... just thought i'll share. hui hui]

The instance just before arising, is the point during one's rejuvenation where dreams can be remembered most clearly. At this one particular time, these were what I saw...

1 The pain of the giant eyelash
And the doctor takes out an eyelash from my left eye. Ahhh... the relief. Looks like you have to be a lot more careful Hui, it can be fatal. Yeah... quite obvious that it is, doctor. Let's take a look at the eyelash- it's no ordinary 2-3cm insignificant eyelash, this is... this is... a pin sized eyelash. The lash was as thick as an average needle, was as stiff as an average needle, and the root-end was as big as a thermometer bulb. Now this is fatal, all right. It was the ordinary colour of black (well, to me anyway); and every time I rubbed my eyes, these needles dropped like snowflakes, like natural phenomena. The expected painstaking discomfort was not vivid in the dream though, luckily, and I also learnt to stop rubbing my eyes, thankfully.

2 Instead of Fushion Chinese Hip Hop, Fushion Dance Class & 18th Birthday Party?
Everyone was there- you, me, him, her, it... you name it, the entire social circle. It started with stretching- we were all on the ground, laughing and enjoying ourselves as if we were at a party, but all dressed in leotards, tights, ballet shoes... trying to reach our toes with our legs outstretched. Someone then walks by, handing me a birthday present, giving me hugs and kisses, and walks away to put her bag down to join in the streches. The male population was unclear, but I'm sure that they were there. The dance studio was absolutely humongous, filled with bright, natural sunlight, and neatly presented dancers. Somehow this dream was viewed in third-person, but I don't remember seeing myself... only blonde girls with hair in buns, body in tights. Bizarre? I think so.

The tendency to have weird dreams is probably hereditary, as Mom has strange dreams all the time as well. They're quite awesome though... sometimes.

Hui Hui ^^b

One Day in the Life of a Receptionist

[wassup wif those random comments?... =S... i'm worried. Shan's commentin heaps! Hehe... so awesome... dude man... start workin out and get fit! =P... hui hui]

How the day just slips by without you noticing it- today, this was entirely magnified.

I came to help out at my Mum's work place today- at Asia Times, the new Chinese newspaper that was born just 3 weeks ago. Mum's always staying out late before each weekly issue, so I decided to come and help her out today since it's my holidays. She was quite reluctant to grant permission, but in the end she allowed me to come and help out just for today (and maybe for one day next week too). I had the job of an Office Girl, where I did the little miscellaneous, no-one's-really-employed-to-do type jobs. I typed invoices, addressed mails, took phone calls, photocopied quite endlessly, and even managed to slip a little bit of Applicable Maths into my day as I ran out of things to do towards the end of the day. I also went to the post office and the bank with Mum, to get the daily formalities out of the way.

In the morning, after only typing a few invoices and addressing mails, it was time for lunch; and by the time you know it, I'm doing overtime. I'm still at the office using its internet and blogging, which isn't really good work ethic... but, I guess I seriously have nothing to do. I intended to start reading my history books, but the internet got the better of me. It feels like I have done nothing today... and the day just slipped by me, as if it never existed. Quite strange, to feel the pace of 1 day so directly. Now I understand why Mum stays here till such late hours, it's not that she didn't finish her work for the day, but there is simply too much work and too little time.

Making the most of each day- seriously, live it to the max.

Hui Hui ^^b

Girlie Day Out

[hehe... shan's comments r SO cute! ^^... feel loved. Man... dat tag board's just soooo awesome, can't get ova it! Hui Hui]

Today... what a mixture of events, feelings, emotions. With about three and a half hours worth of sleep, I managed to cycle to Belle's place with Shan, to spend Belle's last day here before her trip back to M'sia for 2 weeks. The girlie afternoon was filled right up to the top with fun, laughter and chit-chat. Ahhh... the girlie memorable moments.

Just to explain the lack of sleep, it was due to the performance last night for China's National Day, which lasted till about 10.30pm. The next event was a movie marathon with the chickies, Bec, Prisc and Anthea, at Carousel, 11.15pm. After watching The Devil Wears Prada (the fashion she wears is hot), John Tucker Must Die (a bit cliched, but the best of the three) and My Super Ex-Girlfriend (quite boring and couldn't identify with), we motored to send Anthea home, then to Bec's place to hang out. By then it was about 4.30am; and after some awesome chat with Prisc, Bec and I sent her home. Around 6.30am, our own little catch up conversation followed, till around 8.00am. Finally home and ready to sleep, I managed to get some shut eye till about 11.30am. It was unbearably hot by then, so I got up and rummaged through the pantry, satisfying the growing hunger since the night before.

At 12pm, decided to ride to Belle's house, like I promised the night before. Found Shan on the net, so we met at Pinetree Gully intersecting South Street, then it's off to Belle's place for a last minute gathering! The ride didn't take too long, bearable. The uphill ride was quite all right, but Shan was slightly tired. Fitness! From 2pm to 6pm, we talked, lazed around, ate, laughed, joked, flipped through mags, browsed through photos ... the joys of the precious holidays. We were planning to give Shan a highly personal make-over experience, but we ran out of time. Next time we said, next time.

Hui Hui ^^b